me blog.

a new phobia

2012-02-11T05:26:00.000-08:00

BUS-O-PHO-BIA [ bəsəˈfōbēə ]

noun

irrational fear of buses speeding past you as a pedestrian.

Yeah I got that.

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1.16pm

P.S. don't bother google-ing it. you will just run into musophobia.

2012-01-09T00:39:00.000-08:00

the need to remain hidden under the blanket when the morning is so wonderfully cold.

ugh.

i want to sleep.

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8.38am

2012-01-02T03:24:00.000-08:00

the awesome awesome-y feeling of waking up in the morning and seeing the world clad in white.

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11.23am

the land of blondes and brunettes (giant size)

2011-09-20T23:04:00.000-07:00

and one black dwarf.

hm. maybe hobbit. less beard.

so i flew to london somewhere around yesterday.

my yesterday.

probably still your yesterday.

if you get what i mean.

and landed safely!

i am alive~

i am alive~~

-sway and dance around-

not exactly this..

anyway.

the point is. i reached here.

my here.

it will be your there.

am staying with my brother.

typing furiously off the keyboard to keep warm.

it's a blady 14 degree c.

LIKE 14.

HOMG.

I DONT LIKE 14.

THERE'S A 4 THERE.

AND THE 1.

CAN YOU SEE HOW BAD IS THAT?

AND ITS ONLY..

autumn? probably autumn.

oh.

and they have no fans here.

still looking though.

anyway,

ladies and gentlemen,

boys and girls,

cats and dogs,

babies and grandpas-mas,

allow me to present you.

-pause to allow the atmosphere to set in-

london.

-pause even more

for no exact reason-

taa daaaa~

yes its ugly and sucky.

it looks much better here.

much much better in fact.

-looks out the window again to admire the scenery-

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07.03

p.s. is it normal for a body to feel exothermic reaction when the plane started to decrease altitude rapidly?

2011-08-21T08:57:00.000-07:00

and counting.

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11.50pm

P.S. I'm going to Warwick.

2011-08-01T06:20:00.000-07:00

eh?

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9.08pm

2011-04-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

ok so i'm going to tell you this thing that happened just now.

this really really ..

embarrassing thing.

so i was at assunta.

yes the hospital.

why?

cause i banged a car.

stupid car.

it wasn't really my fault.

that FREAGIN CAR SUDDENLY FLY TO MY LANE WITHOUT ANY SIGNALS

LIKE SWOOSHHHHHHHHHHHH-BANG.

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW HE'S GOING TO MY LANE IF HE DON'T FLASH ANY SIGNAL?

DON'T THEY KNOW THE RULES?

I MEAN LIKE WHAT THE HELL?!

WHAT KIND OF IRRESPONSIBLE HUMAN DO THAT?

YOU WANT TO DIE YOU DIE YOUR OWNSELF LA.

GO BANG INTO A LAMPPOST OR SOMETHING.

WHY MUST YOU COME TO MY LANE?

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

so before this goes out of hand...

yes i'm lying.

my dad has to do a minor surgery.

so i was there.

well anyway.

that's not the event i'm supposed to say.

so i was waiting at the elevator at the lobby alone.

-ting-

-elevator door open-

-elevator empty-

so i walk in.

-press button 4-

and wait.

for like 5 seconds.

the elevator door remains open.

so i press another button.

the one on the right.

and wait another 3 seconds.

the door refused to close.

baffled, i press the same button again.

yes the right one.

and still the door refused to close.

and i was like standing at the open elevator like a dumb dumb.

then i look at the buttons more carefully.

thought maybe the elevator isn't working..

and press the same one again.

the right one twice! just to be on the safe side.

AND THE DOOR REFUSED TO CLOSEEEEE.

i was about to walk out from the elevator

( imagine seeing someone entering an elevator and stand in it for 15-30 seconds and then walk out again )

when i finally know what was wrong.

so this time,

this time,

i pressed another button.

the left one.

now it close.

and the elevator goes up.

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11.26pm

2011-02-24T23:39:00.000-08:00

something's going on with me.

or in me.

or around me.

i dont know.

im getting headaches.

my breathing's irregular.

my voice's louder than usual.

and my nose's picking up a lot of smell.

my table's messy.

not that it's ever tidy.

the bird annoys me.

i cant think properly.

everything's wrong suddenly.

i think i'm having stress.

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3.42pm

updates loooooong overdue

2011-02-24T04:40:00.000-08:00

so.

burlesque's nice.

at least it's worth the 2 hours.

the only part i dont get is when cher sings "the last of me".

it's too..

out of place.

like singing for the sake of singing.

no... link to the movie whatsoever.

no flow.

like dwarf in a sea of giants.

and i kinda forgot what i want to update.

-.-

so till next time.

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9.56pm

2011-02-14T02:16:00.000-08:00

to the wonderful females out there i know,

I AM JUST HERE TO WISH YOU A VERY HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY AND I AM VERY SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO GIVE YOU A FLOWER BUT I PROMISE I WILL DO SO WHEN I AM RICH ENOUGH SO YES PLEASE DO LOOK OUT FOR FLOWERS FROM ME BUT YOU MIGHT HAVE TO WAIT FOR A WHILE BECAUSE I DONT THINK I CAN GET RICH ENOUGH ANY TIME SOON MEANWHILE YOU WILL JUST HAVE TO CONTENT YOURSELF WITH THIS GUY.

p.s. it's kind of ugly. didn't really have time. so yeah. bear with it.

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10.48pm

2011-02-09T04:55:00.001-08:00

ok fine.

big bang theory's funny.

and you should have heard my sister laughing her butt off there.

despite the fact she watched it once.

and she's singing along with the opening song.

the one about pyramids mad scientists godknowswhat and the big bang BANG!

and i'm trying very desperately to only watch 1 episode per day.

despite the fact that i have watched 2 episodes today.

and is currently itching to continue to the 3rd episode.

-insert an emoticon that depicts furious attempt to refrain from clicking on

"The Big Bang Theory - 103 -The Fuzzy Boots Corollary"-

...

ok im clicking it.

edit. im currently on to my 4th episode. technically you cant blame me. my sister insist on watching.

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8.59pm

2011-01-25T17:52:00.000-08:00

i scribble.

if you ever give me a pencil and a paper,
or seen me around with one,

well,

you get to see my scribble.

o.o

and sometimes,

i just happened to scribble monsters.

fine alot of times.

o.o

like the one above.

not that nice though. a much more primitive version.

and ...

i used to have this particular thought that..

what i drew will come alive.

O.O

at night.

O.O

and wreak havoc.

O.O

and i have to do something rightt.

i mean its MONSTERSSSS.

HUGE BIG SCARY MONSTERS.

so ...

well..

i did 2 things.

either...

i scribbled and blackened the monster..

( so that even if it comes alive its just a lump of blackness. now let's see how u bite me! )

or i..

scribbled even more.

o.o

and drew angels and good things!

so so so!

they contrast each other!

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5.52pm

things to do the next 10 days

2010-12-31T00:20:00.000-08:00

finish up my books i borrowed .

o.o

i have like .. 3 more to go.

oh oh oh oh.

i almost finish reading Cecelia's books. except for one.

i think it's where rainbow ends.

or when rainbow ends.

or when rainbows end.

or where rainbows end.

hmm..

wait a minute.

this!

( yay i got it right! )

clear up my table.

no that's not mine. though mine is similar to that.

make that tables. -.-

i have successfully conquered both my sister's tables.

and also the computer's table.

the thing is,

i remembered cleaning them 2 weeks ago.

i dont know how they become super messy so fast.

maybe leprechauns mess them up at night.

o.o

maybe they have parties there.

o.o

on my table.

no wonder i found bread crumbs on my table the other day.

i never knew they eat bread.

now i know.

-touch imaginary beard and nod solemnly-

o.o

so anyway,

u know like the Rumpelstiltskin?

(the one that sings all alone in a forest about his name )

know which one?

"yeah sure do!"

well,

multiply that by 10.

o.o

maybe 20.

Rumpelstiltskin's a leprechaun right?

._.

draw.

man i need to draw.

like drawwwwwww.

i need back my inspirations.

my imaginations.

my touch.

my soul.

my spirit.

me.

and to stay away from the computer.

which brings me to the next thing!

stay away from the !@#$%^&* computer.

yes im addicted to it.

jeez.

i spent more than 6 hours per day for the last 7 days.

and not that im doing something worthwhile with it.

it's like this.

-stare at computer-

-get stared back-

-stare even more intently-

-get stared back even more intently-

-stare stare stare-

-stare back stare back stare back-

-stare till the sky falls down-

-stare back till your eyes get blind-

gabla.

get the point?

and and and and and and and!

due to too much sitting down and not moving,

i got a tummy now.

LIKE A TUMMMMYYYYYYYYYY.

I NEVER HAD A TUMMY BEFORE.

NOT IN THE WHOLE 18 YEARS I LIVED.

AND NOW I GOT ONE.

LIKE A TUMMY.

T.T

( well notice-able by me only but still.. )

( a tummy nonetheless)

o.o 3 for now.

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12.20am

if you are acrophobic like me, trust me when i say views from mountains and hills are just not worth the height.

all about 18 part 1 - hello mr. lim

2010-12-23T17:35:00.002-08:00

so the first change i noticed about being 18 is this.

-keep scrolling my friend-

-or er.. the stranger who just happen to stumble on this blog and got all bored and decide to read it-

-maybe an alien-

o.o

OMG AN ALIEN AN ALIEN IS READING THIS OMG PLEASE STOP READING AHHHH I CANT STOP TYPING MAYBE HE'S CONTROLLING ME NOW IM BEING CONTROLLED SOMEONE HELP ME NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HE'S CONTROLLING MY BRAIN NO WAIT MY LIMBS ITS TYPING BY ITSELF ITS NOT MY FAULT THIS TIME LIKE SERIOUSLY NOT MY FAULT ITS THE ALIEN'S HE'S INSIDE MY HAND AND HE'S MOVING IT AND I JUST CANT STOP TYPING SOMEBODY SAVE ME PLEASE SAVE ME FROM THIS UNSTOPPABLE TYPING FRENZY -pause and scratch face for a while- YES HE LET ME GO NOOOOO HE DIDNT IM STILL TYPING AHHHHHHHHH THIS IS BAD THIS IS REALLY BAD HOW PLEASE TELL ME HOWWWWWWWW

-cough and regain posture-

yeah the alien's gone.

like i said it's not my fault.

( refer above)

-points up-

ok so anyway.

before i get really really out of my point,

not that its my fault,

like i said before,

refer above,

-points up again-

ahh this is getting very long winded.

so the thing is people start calling me mr. lim

like erm..

MR. LIM.

no more

"boy"

"young man",

"kid",

"hey you" ( not even the gender ),

"-snorts-"

"-more snortings-"

yeah u get my point.

so when did it all start?

well.

the e-mails.

by the university.

they goes like that.

_______________________________________________

mr. lim wen long,

bla bla bla bla yada yada bla bla bla bla bla.

and on and on and on.

the name

the position

_______________________________________________

and the letter from joanna!

o.o

i was wondering who's calling me mr. lim wen long

and i open the letter and yeah its from joanna.

and and and and and and and the most significant one.

so this is what happened.

that day i went to the bank with my momma.

to create a bank account. ( im 18! )

and the manager looks at me and says.

so mr. lim, -and the rest of what he said is unheard and drowned and flooded and the mr. lim keeps echoing and echoing in my mind-

so yeah.

mr. lim, eh?

i guess i can live with that.

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10.06pm

p.s. my dad just went to taiwan today. yes im home alone. no you cant rob me.

p.p.s. i want to play monopoly. o.o

things i didn't tell you on my birthday

2010-12-06T01:58:00.000-08:00

Mi sono svegliato 7 volte nel bel mezzo della notte.

i was so sick i coughed till my ribs hurt. literally.

from hide facebook my including i very you in nearly everyone birthday.

eye never celebreathird mai burfdei beefor.

eye didernt c de point too start on mai ateteenth.

i dnot deora bmaant.

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10.03pm

2010-11-30T02:11:00.000-08:00

i walked in the rain today.

o.o

it has been like .. a really long time since i last did that.

and it's nice.

something like taking a shower.

with your clothes on.

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6.18pm

2010-11-29T03:14:00.000-08:00

i'm just here to tell you that i find rapunzel prettier than emma.

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7.15pm

2010-11-21T05:19:00.000-08:00

i'm going to school by bus tomorrow.

alone.

at .. 6.45 i think.

o.o

note alone and morning.

O.O

dangerous combination.

maybe those guys will strike tomorrow.

o.o

omg this is bad this is bad this is bad.

relax.

please breathe in and breathe out.

-breathe in-

-HOLD-

-STILL HOLDING-

-YES STILL HOLDING-

-face turn blue-

OMG LACK OF OXYGEN.

-breathe out-

-.-

maybe they are going to kidnap me while im walking to the bus station.

o.o

or maybe after i came out of the bus.

o.o

maybe they are in the bus.

and they are just waiting for me to get on.

o.o

maybe they are going to hijack the bus.

OMG THEY ARE GOING TO HIJACK THE BUS LIKE THEY DO IN THE MOVIE THEY ARE GOING TO SHOOT THROUGH THE TYRES AND THE BUS'S GOING TO STOP AND THEY ARE GOING TO SHOOT DOWN ALL THE WINDOWS AND A FEW BULLETS AT THE AIR AND AND AND AND THEY ARE GOING TO KILL ME AND OMG ALL THOSE PASSENGERS AND ALSO THE BUS DRIVER AND THE MOSQUITOES OMG POOR MOSQUITOES THEY ARE GOING TO DIE AND THE SKY IS GOING TO FALL DOWN WHY I DONT KNOW BUT ITS GOING TO FALL DOWN AND ITS GOING TO LAND ON ME AND IM GOING TO DIE TWICE AND I KNOW I CANT BE DEAD IF IM DEAD BUT STILL I AM GOING TO DIE AGAIN AND AND AND AND AND AND AND AND ALIENS ARE GOING TO COME TO EARTH OMG MARTIANS AND THEY ARE GOING TO INVADE EARTH AND AND AND THE SKY WILL BE RAINING LASERS AND MISSLE AND GOD KNOWS WHAT ELSE THEY GOT AND I KNOW THE SKY HAD FELL DOWN SO TECHNICALLY THERE ISNT ANY SKY BUT STILL THE SKY IS THERE SINCE THERE'S A LOT OF SKY AND I KNOW IM NOT MAKING ANY SENSE AND I CANT BELIEVE U ACTUALLY READ UNTIL HERE SO CONGRATULATIONS AND NOT ONLY THAT MAYBE GODZILLA'S GOING TO COME FROM THE SEA OMG MAYBE THE UNDERWATER SEA CREATURES GOT ANGRY AT US WHATS WITH ALL THE UNDERWATER DRILLING AND THE SUBMARINES AND MAYBE THEY ARE GOING TO SURFACE AND EAT US UP AND THIS IS REALLY BAD AND PLEASE DONT ASK ME HOW A BUS HIJACKING EVOLVES TO MARTIANS AND SEA CREATURES BECAUSE IM JUST TYPING WHAT COMES TO MY MIND AND

i guess i should stop now.

-.-

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9.38pm

2010-11-19T07:32:00.000-08:00

._________________________________________________________.

so a lot of u managed to figure out the previous post.

o.o

guess i'm in danger.

0.0

maybe they are planning a really really big plan.

O.O

this is bad.

O.O

hell.

maybe they already have a plan.

O.O

AND THEY ARE GOING TO COME TONIGHT OMG THEY ARE COMING I CAN SEE THEM IN THE DARK OMG THEY ARE COMING THEY ARE THERE OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG AHHHHH I SEE SHADOWS AHHH AND SOUNDS OMG SOUNDS AHHH THEY ARE HERE I CAN FEEL THEM THEY ARE BESIDE ME NOW AND THEY ARE GOING TO FORCE ME TO TELL THEM WHERE'S WHERE'S WHERE'S WHERE'S WHERE'S AHHH AND I COULDN'T TELL THEM I JUST COULDN'T BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT THEY WANT BUT THEY DONT CARE THIS THEY JUST WANT AND THEY ARE GOING TO TORTURE ME LIKE THOSE IN THE OLD CHINESE DRAMAS OMG OMG OR MAYBE THE MODERN WESTERN SHOWS THIS IS BAD THIS IS BAD THIS IS BAD THIS IS BAD THIS IS BAD THIS IS BAD THIS IS BAD

._.

-cough and smile sheepishly-

sorry.

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10.04am

p.s. u can just skip the whole caps lock part.

2010-11-17T01:26:00.000-08:00

oh oh oh oh oh.

i was thinking of typing out what happened yesterday.

but then it wont be safe for me.

o.o

as in as in..

err..

it wont be safe for me.

it will be dangerous.

so i will do it in picture forms.

and u guess it! ok ?

so here goes.

bet u dont know this! ;)

( omg the first time i use that smiley face )

done!

go figure!

hee.

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6.03pm

2010-11-15T07:41:00.000-08:00

hello hello!

i'm i'm back.

and and my exam's over!

so so hello hello!

hmm hmm.

did did u notice the bright bright colour ?

like like at the backgroundground theree?

and and the title!

its its quite nice righhttt.

so so anyway im going to change it.

o.o

why why?

O.O

dno dno.

so so.

by by by by!

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2.47pm

2010-09-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

I'm thinking of .. making brainie and brawnie.

in case you're wondering who are both of them.

well.

i guess you just have to wait until i make them.

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4.56pm

P.S. I'm so very very sorry for saying the f word twice. -points at my easier to be irritable emotion- his fault. anyway. very very sorry. - bow for emphasis - Twice!

2010-09-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

P.S. If it's not after 12o clock am 17/9/2010 dont read this post. go away. -.-

so so so so.

let me tell you a story for your birthday.

okay?

-pause to wait for response-

okay! <----- ( you have to like follow this response, other wise the script cant continue )

-grins like an idiot-

now for the rest who don't have any birthday today go far far away. Yes I'm selfish and mean and unkind. Not that you will heed my instruction.

lets begin.

...

Have you ever heard of jabba-jabba?

You mean the huge purplish monster?

He's not a monster!

Yea yea. I wouldn't wish to be near him. He's scary.

No he's not.

Are you mad? Have you heard of stories about him? About his long sharp teeth? And the claws he had? And .. his roar? They say it's worse than werewolves'. And he's purple in colour you know.

But he's a vegetarian!

-roll eyes- Right. A vegetarian that has long sharp teeth and claws and roar like a werewolf. You could have heard how ridiculous you sound. -in a weeny sharp voice- "but he's a vegetarian!"

The little girl ran away from the boy, while he laughed and growled. She couldn't understand why. She couldn't wait to ask Jabba-Jabba.

...

She found Jabba-Jabba in their secret hideout. Jabbaabaaa, it was called. Jabba-Jabba gave it this name. You will know why later.

Hello Jabba-Jabba.

Jaaaa.

Why do people think you are scary?

Jaa? Jaababa..? - a shrug -

You know what? I don't find u scary. So what if you got claws that sharp and fangs that large? You couldn't even bear to hurt those people who throw stones at you. And the horrible thing they say about your growling! And a lot of things are purple too! So why do they find you scary?

Jaabababa... -Jabba-Jabba sat down and sigh-

And why don't you speak English? It's quite hard to understand you at times you know. I mean you only got Ja and Ba.

-Jabba-Jabba shakes head repeatedly- JaJaBaBa! JaJa? Baaaa. Jaaaaa. JaBa JaBa. BaJa BaJa. BaJaJaJa.

Ok.. Maybe there's Jaa and Baa. It's still quite limited.

-shakes head again- JaJaJaaaaaa. Baaaaaa.

Yes Yes. Jaaaa and Baaaaa. Oh. It's quite late already. Have to go back before my mama worries.

Bye Jabba-Jabba.

Baaaa.

The little girl ran home alone while Jabba-Jabba watch her back. Jabba-Jabba not scary? It's a wonder you don't find Jabba-Jabba scary. You are the first person who doesn't find Jabba-Jabba terrifying. When he can no longer see the girl's shadow, Jabba-Jabba retreated to the dark corners of his hideout, and lied down and lifted his arm up, gazing at his claws, the sharp long claws, and sighed. Why did God give him these? The sun shined on them and casted shadows on his face, and if that's God replying, Jabba-Jabba didn't understand.

It rained the whole night that day. Maybe it rained till the next morning. Jabba-Jabba didn't know. It rained and rained and rained, until Jabba-Jabba lost track of time. Jabba-Jabba felt cold. Jaaaaaabaaaa. There's even lightning and thunder. Jabba-Jabba hated those. Too loud, Too bright. Jabba-Jabba covered his ears. While the wind kept howling and howling, like a thousand lonely wolves in a full moon night.

It stopped at last. And the sun came up again. Jabba-Jabba knew the girl would come then. Jabba-Jabba's happy. He was wrong. The girl didn't come. Not even after the sun set till the deepest of the mountains and the moon hung high up in the sky. The girl didn't come. Jabba-Jabba wondered why. He frowned and started thinking. Nothing. He frowned harder. Jabba-Jabba got tired. Thinking took too much of his energy. Jabba-Jabba slept.

Another day passed without the girl coming. Jabba-Jabba began to be worried. Maybe the girl got scared of him? Maybe her family knew of him? Maybe.. maybe the girl's in danger? Jabba-Jabba stood up at his last thought, determined to find out what exactly had happened. The little girl is the only one who stood up for him, naturally he would have repay the kindness.

So Jabba-Jabba rumbled on, taking large strides one at a time, on and on he moved, until he reached the village- the place where the girl lived. But all he saw are rubbles and stones and ruins, and ashes and remains and wreck. Then he saw her, half buried, and Jabba-Jabba looked at his claws and finally realised their use. and with his massive limbs and claws he began tossing and turning all those above her, and every single other villagers.

In return, a statue was built in honour of Jabba-Jabba, and the story was passed down generations after generations until it became a legend. The legend of Jabba-Jabba. I think you know it. Nowadays, we call him, Barney, the purple dinosaur.

Hope it's niceee enoughh.

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6.54pm

2010-09-06T04:36:00.000-07:00

u know what?

i made a whale out of my eraser.

it's mold-able.

eraser specially for art.

or rather carbon painting.

( no i dont know how much about carbon painting, just the basics )

and ...

how i wish to show u how nice it looks like.

but well.

i dont have a camera.

and my webcam's sulking.

so..

till next time perhaps?

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7.55pm

2010-09-02T02:39:00.000-07:00

i didn't sleep well last night.

i woke up .. for .. 4 times?

or 5.

or maybe 6.

and changed rooms 4 times at least. ( to sleep on another bed )

just between 2 rooms though.

i don't know why.

that's like my first time not sleeping well.

i think it's the drink my momma gave me.

maybe it's supposed to keep me awake.

oh well.

it's over.

on a lighter note.

i finished my exams.

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5.43pm

2010-08-30T03:38:00.000-07:00

sun.

hot.

dry.

stuffy.

suffocating.

can't breathe.

restless.

rain.

please rain.

at last.

thank you.

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6.42pm

the dog that learned to cross the road

2010-08-26T04:23:00.000-07:00

have you ever seen that?

dogs crossing road i mean.

not those that run blindly across and risk getting hit.

those that look LEFT and RIGHT and cross.

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7.25pm

me and my personal statement

2010-08-24T03:48:00.000-07:00

so my personal statement is done. and sent.

quite a few days ago actually.

and I just want to thank everyone who helped reading and commenting.

so here goes the list-

my family

kuo chuin sin

ms. germaine ng

joanna yap yi ling

andrew tan wei shin

yong ren saw

jie-en teoh

shuk pui wung

chee seng fong

the mabecs consultant ( im so very sorry i forgot your name )

kuan haw ng

adrian wong.

hmm. i think i didn't miss out anyone else.

thank you once again.

so now about my .. course.

i guess i will be applying maths and / or physics.

and basically people ask me what can i do next time.

well..

i don't know.

i mean.

i study the course now because i like it.

it's actually that simple.

i don't really care about .. my future job.

maybe my job may has nothing to do with maths and / or physics.

maybe when i grow older i don't like them anymore.

who knows?

maybe i can sell char kuei teow.

and hmm.

if i do that.

i will change my title of my blog to

THE MATHEMATICIAN WHO SELL CHAR KUEI TEOW

hehe.

how cool is that?

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8.01pm

-staying cool, staying calm-

2010-08-22T19:20:00.000-07:00

hehe. changed my blog layout little bit.
will change more later.

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10.21am

2010-08-21T08:16:00.000-07:00

yes it's true that i am slightly easier to be irritated now.

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11.15pm

trying to remember how to smile

2010-08-20T06:50:00.001-07:00

i think i finally figured out what's changing.

i'm being a little more hotheaded.

a little more restless.

a little more wanting.

i doubt you notice that.

it's just a little more.

something noticeable only by me.

but it's affecting me.

very effectively.

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9.50pm

P.S. eat, pray, love not bad. for an autobiography. ( sort of )

2010-07-31T21:03:00.000-07:00

im going to start my personal statement today.

let's see how far i can do it.

hmm.

long

12.03pm

2010-07-27T06:50:00.000-07:00

i think i'm changing.

i don't know what yet.

but i can feel it in my soul.

the feeling that something's different.

we shall see.

whether it's good.

or bad.

p.s. viva la vida is nice. the flow of the song. i don't know about the lyrics. and yes im slow and outdated and i suck.

oh. and happy birthday jie-en.

happyyy birthday.

long

10.04pm

2010-07-19T02:29:00.000-07:00

question.

if what you can't see can't hurt you.
will you cover your eyes and be impenetrable,
or will you open them and bleed to death?

long
5.39pm

2010-07-10T12:34:00.000-07:00

i was standing there.

and u asked why i am sad.

i am not.

it's just that sometimes being an observer in life makes u feel things.

things beyond comprehension.

and flooding.

like one hundred million light bulbs flashing at once.

and i got lost in the middle of this brightness.

and can only stood there.

it's helplessness.

not sadness.

if you had smelled the same air i smelled and tasted what it tasted like,

then perhaps you will fathom what i am saying.

the air that day is still.

madly still.

and quiet.

deathly quiet.

there exist a freshness in the air that i have not smelled in a long time.

but in it carry a stench of fear and horror.

and i feared that if i shout out loud.

no one would answer.

because either i am dead.

or everyone else within range is.

p.s. everything's okay.

it's enjoyable.

the day.

and happy birthday joanna.

for the last time for the next 364 days.

happy birthday.

long.

3.40am

MY RIGHT BUTT STILL HURTS.

2010-07-07T02:16:00.000-07:00

so today's my driving test.

and i have a few things to tell you.

o.o

here goes.

i nearly fail my slope.

very nearly fail my parking.

and.

and.

and.

and very very very nearly lost my phone.

o.o

allow me to elaborate.

so.

i went up the slope.

stop my car.

smile at the guy.

says hello.

says wassup?

says u look awesome today.

give him one big smile.

and says im not gay. ( he's a male )

bla bla bla.

then i pull down my handbrake.

and guess what?

my

car

actually

SLIDEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

DOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

SLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEE

for god knows how many inches.

then i freagin press the freagin accelerator and the car flies up again.

thank god he didn't fail me.

and then i says,

god. you look more handsome now.

and reassure him once again that im not gay.

;)

anyway.

so about the parking.

i did everything my instuctor told me.

and the stupid blardy car's still TOUCHING THE FREAGIN YELLOW BOX.

and i told myself not to panick.

and end up panicking.

while the whole world looks at me.

and me moving my car forward and backwards.

REPEATEDLY.

trying to fit the stupid thing in the stupid box.

and i succeed.

and the officer in charge's staring at me while laughing. ( not loudly, but i can feel his laugh )

and i raise my hands up.

and here i goes again.

you look handsome.

and gorgeous.

and superb and wonderful and fantastic.

not to mention that particular sexy moustache of yours.

and the sunglasses.

oh.

and the abs coming out of your uniform.

then i went out to assure that i'm not interested in males and proceed to my three-point turn.

nothing important there.

then i drive my car back to the starting point.

and left the car.

and walk to the 2nd stage. ( on-the-road test )

and i gave the form to the officer.

and went and sit down.

and touch my pockets.

and say shoot.

my phone.

then i ran all the way back.
and peep and ask and poke and look and search for my phones in every single car in sight.
and the stupid sun is so hot and sexy that it almost melts me.
then one officer noticed me and ask me what im finding.
so i explain to him that my phone is lost.
and tell him that i find him quite hawt too.
so he ask me what's the number plate of the car.
and i say i dunno.
and he told me to go and look at the form. it's mentioned there.
so i went back and ask the female officer for my form.
and she FREAGIN IGNORED me.
for like 30 seconds.
or 1 minute.
and spent another 30 seconds ( or 1 minute ) teaching me about how to greet a person.
while i keep on nodding.
until she stops.
and ask kindly for my form.
then i went to the car.
and search it once.
and it wasn't there. ( my phone i mean )
so i went around and ask all kind of people.
and all the while the hot and sexy sun tried to seduce me.
and finally.
another officer spot me.
and ask what i am looking for.
and PRODUCED MY PHONE FROM HIS POCKET.
AND SO I THANK HIM FOR AROUND ONE THOUSAND TIMES.
MENTION THAT HE'S SO HOT AND SEXY THAT HE EVEN OUTSHINE THE SUN.
AND THAT HE EVEN MAKES DOGS DROOL ALL OVER THE PLACE.
AND EVEN BATMAN THINKS THAT HE ROCKS.
AND SO ON AND ON AND ON .
until he decided to call me to shut up.
so i shut-ed up and obeyed his request.
and went to wait for the on-the-road test.

and that's all from me.
so this is me, signing off.

long
12.39am

by the way, this blog is supposed to be done yesterday, thus explain the 'today'.

there's no need to talk. for the truth in what one says lies in what one does.

- the reader -

2010-06-28T05:27:00.000-07:00

my father's bugging me to do my personal statement.

and i don't even know what i'm going to study.

where i'm going to study.

great, eh?

now my future seriously looks bleak.

long

8.47pm

2010-06-26T02:25:00.000-07:00

im going to go and eat seafood.

i ate a lot this week.

both in the varieties and number.

oh.

and i ate a very very very wonderful ikan bakar this wednesday.

the meat is like. gawd. super nice.

( im sorry if my description cannot be more wonderful and tantalizing and mouth-watering and ... and ... nice )

i ran out of words. =3=

ok great.

i suck at blogging about food.

long

5.29pm

they don't let me... because my mom's a whore and i'm a bastard.

- idoia jocelyn, the mathematics of love-

2010-06-18T00:02:00.001-07:00

helooooooo peopleeeeeeeeee. =)

ok so.

my brother's back.

( with his girlfriend. )

yes. his girlfriend.

and they are staying at my house.

( seperate room though. )

( they are just in a relationship ok? )

and my mom don't know about that.

she's somewhere in taiwan.

and apparently she isn't informed about this.

and that's very bad.

REAL BAD.

she's going to like ...

like....

like.....

nothing.

i am just frightening you.

my mom's a pacifist. ( like me! )

( yeah right. a pacifist. )

anyway.

just in case you are wondering how my brother and my brother's girlfriend looks like.

YOU CAN KEEP ON WONDERING.

I'M SO NOT SHOWING YOU.

HA!

long

12.55pm

you have your justice.

and i have mine.

we are both ordinary men,

driven to seek vengeance under the banner of justice.

-pain, naruto-

a slight disappointment

2010-06-08T06:35:00.000-07:00

so today i receive the letter regarding my appeal about my spm result.

and so i just open it.

and look.

and the thing starts off like that.

dengan sukacitanya perkara di atas dirujuk.

( and my heart skipped a beat. yes it did. but just a beat. )

bla bla bla bla bla.

adalah disahkan bahawa keputusan semak semula tuan / puan mengikut mata pelajaran di atas adalah KEKAL bla bla bla bla.

( summore wan bold and caps lock )

yeah.

so that's the case.

long

9.45pm

the issue of number 3.

2010-06-04T03:40:00.003-07:00

ok. so hello people.

so i have been 'cutting' my hair for ... ( count fingers ) 2, 4 , 6 ... 8 ? yep. around there.

and i have been getting similar response.

* INTERRUPTION*

BREAKING NEWS. APPARENTLY THERE'S SOMETHING CALLED THE WHITE COCKROACH. YES U HEARD ME RIGHT.

A WHITE COCKROACH.

http://boingboing.net/2007/11/28/photos-of-white-cock.html

( just in case you don't believe me )

so yeah. just to tell you that there's a white cockroach and you are not colour blind / facing hallucination / on and on and on when you see one.

* so continuing *

anyway. im just here to .. erm clarify a few things.

here goes.

Q: why you go cut bald / botak ah?

erm. technically i am not BALD.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTT

TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

LLLLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!

AND JUST FOR YOUR INFORMATION.

a BALD person looks like this. ( refer to below )

AND as far as i'm concerned, i DO NOT look like that. so yeah. u get my point.

Q: why you go cut your hair ah?

( stunned. )

( ignore the so pretty part. i just want the stunned part )

=.=

pardon me,

but why do you cut your hair?

that's a super weird question.

it's like asking

why batman rocks.

it's common sense.

batman rocks because he rocks.

so i cut my hair because i cut my hair.

get it?

if you do, congrats.

if you don't, try harder.

if you still don't, .. well.

you are not trying hard enough.

Q: you look like a monk. ( more like a statement )

screw u go die. -.-

long

3.43pm

2010-05-26T04:38:00.000-07:00

physics.

topic 1 : physical quantities and units - done

topic 2 : measurement techniques - done

topic 3 : kinematics - done

topic 4 : dynamics - done

topic 5 : forces - done

topic 6 : work, energy, power - done

topic 7 : phases of matter - done ( perhaps need revision )

topic 8 : deformation of solids - not done

topic 9 : waves - not done

topic 10: superposition - not done

topic 11: electric field - not done

topic 12: current of electricity - not done

topic 13: D.C circuits - not done

topic 14: Nuclear Physics - not done

Maths

topic 1 : quadratics - unconfirmed

topic 2 : functions - unconfirmed

topic 3 : coordinate geometry - unconfirmed

topic 4 : circular measure - done

topic 5 : trigonometry - unconfirmed

topic 6 : binomial expansion - done

topic 7 : vectors - unconfirmed

topic 8 : differentiation - done

topic 9 : integration - unconfirmed

topic 10: everything about graphs - unconfirmed

topic 11: permutations and combinations - unconfirmed

topic 12: probabilities - unconfirmed

topic 13: binomial distribution - done

topic 14: normal distribution - done

mechanics

topic 1 : momentum - almost done

topic 2 : projectile motion - unconfirmed

topic 3 : rigid body equilibrium - not done

topic 4 : circular motion - unconfirmed

pure maths

topic 1 : summation of series - not done

topic 2 : mathematical induction - not done

topic 3 : polynomials and rational function - not done

topic 4 : vectors - not done

topic 5 :matrices - not done

economics

not done.

i think i ought to panic.

long

8.15 pm

counting down . 12 days.

2010-05-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

be spontaneous.

be random.

be silly, be dumb, be childish.

be innocent.

scream and shout and yell at the sky.

or dance and jump and hop around in the middle of a crowd.

or cry and laugh when you want.

and giggle and smile and grin without reason.

perhaps wave and smile at a stranger.

and take initiative to speak to him.

none of them are wrong. none.

i only wish i can do them.

with sufficient courage, that is.

long

8.49pm

( 2 posts in one day. ) wooo~~~

2010-05-23T00:42:00.001-07:00

hello people.

i think it's pretty long since i last came here.

im too lazy.

anyway.

just dropping by to say hello to all of you people. ( hello! )

i knew i wished you earlier, but i suddenly have this sudden intention to wish you again. =)

i guess this is alright with you?

so now we are done with the formalities.

lets move on.

let's see...

what can we talk about?

hmm....

( think deeply... )

( really deeply....)

(really really deeply... )

( hmm..... )

( u know what...? )

... what ?

THERE

NOTHING

HERE

FOR

YOU

SEE.

AHA!

-GRINS-

( batman rocks. )

you weren't expecting me to say that righhttt?

long

4.00pm

i don't.

i don't have any questions.

if you haven't say something all this time, then you probably had a reason.

that's your problem.

i don't know how to ask about it.

i don't know a good way to ask about it without trampling on your feelings.

so i'll wait.

until you feel like talking about it.

until you think it's okay to talk about it.

you don't have to say anything.

until that time.

-kurosaki ichigo, bleach-

2010-05-12T05:08:00.000-07:00

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long

9.27pm

2010-04-24T03:46:00.000-07:00

to the pendek pendek.

i know you don't read my blog. it's a good thing. in a way. perhaps to you, i'm as impenetrable as helm's deep, as puzzling as atlantis, as vague as demons and gods. hell. perhaps everyone thinks so. but oh well. I'm just here to tell you that you are, a great friend. and I thank you. for exactly that.

long

7.31pm

P.S. yes that's all. -.-

2010-04-19T06:08:00.001-07:00

i never knew ex-crush can still cause one's heartbeat to skip.

i was wrong after all.

don't get the wrong idea.

enduring and forgiving are two very different things.

we can never forgive the atrocities committed against us.

we have every right to be angry.

but we must endure the anger.

someone has to be the one to stand up and sever these bond of hatred.

-an ishbalan, full metal alchemist-

long

8.03pm

P.S. i'm thinking a lot these days.

2010-04-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

i think.

it is of human nature.

to display the best side of theirs.

and to.

conceal the worst side of theirs.

and in the occasion.

where one human.

begins to take another one for granted.

that's when they show.

both side of theirs.

long

10.02pm

2010-04-13T02:40:00.003-07:00

i wonder.

if i can forget anything i want.

will i do it?

will you?

long

5.40pm

2010-03-25T04:48:00.000-07:00

i would like to tell you 2 things.

first of all.

i do not like making friends with twins.

as in IDENTICAL TWINS.

not FRATERNAL TWINS.

why?

you ask.

simply because they look like each other.

well.

assuming you know twin A and do not know twin B.

how are you supposed to know that the one you meet is twin A or twin B?

what if you say hi ( which is meant for twin A ) and it turns out to twin B??

then twin B will be wondering why the hell are you waving at him/ her.

and if you DON'T say hi, twin A will think you are plain cold, and eventually will ignore you altogether too.

get what i mean?

now the second thing.

i found out that being a further maths teacher is EXTREMELY PROFITABLE.

and by EXTREMELY PROFITABLE.. i mean EXTREMELY PROFITABLE.

you don't believe me?

well.

let me convince you.

so first of all.

further maths is an extremely hard subject.

so logically speaking, further maths teacher should be paid more.

and assuming that's correct, they are already earning MORE than other teachers.

secondly.

my further maths teacher can teach AT MOST two questions per hour.

and by ' further maths teacher ' , i mean BOTH of my further maths teacher.

basically they just come into the class, write down question, and start solving it.

while everyone stares. and when he's done, well. we copy it. ( the less hardworking ones of course)

and thirdly.

further maths is an extremely hard subject.

so hard that the number of students studying it ( when compared to other subject ) is insignificant.

to conclude.

further maths teacher teach LESS students, teach LESS questions, and at the same time, earn MORE.

and they can conduct tuition classes too.

RM100 PER HOUR PER PERSON.

that's the fee they are charging my friend.

100 PER HOUR PER PERSON.

so if there's 2 people in a class, that's RM200 PER HOUR.

hmm. i wonder do freshman doctors earn THAT much.

long

8.02pm

2010-03-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

eloooo.

i tell u something ah.

i stepped around 500 cans today.

u know those aluminium cans?

100 plus, 7up, carlsberg, so on so on.

got it?

AND I STEPPED 500 OF THEM U NOE!!!!

500!!!!!!

THAT'S LIKE A LOTTTTTT.

well. allow me to elaborate.

i went to the recycling today. its a monthly thing la.

anyway.

woke up at 7.15. -.- ( my dad being the alarm )

and reach the place at around 7.45.

so so.

when i reach there ah.

i saw a plastic bag of cans.

a WHOLE plastic bag of cans

so so so so so.

being the very hardworking me.

i pour them out and start stepping lo. ( save space ma )

and that's when the nightmare begins.

anyway.

i start stepping ma.

step step step step step.

a quarter way through!

step step step step step step.

halfway through!!!!!

step step step step step.

ALMOST DONE!!!

GWUSHHH!!!!!!! ( sounds of more cans being poured down ) ( i know i suck at making sound eff.)

-look down-

-roll eyes-

oh gawd.

all my previous achievements.

T.T

fine lo.

continue step lo.

no choice right?

so....

-resuming stepping -

piak piak piak~

piak piak piak piak piak piak piak~

piak piak piiiakk~

piak piak piak~

piak piak piak piak piak piak piak~~

last 2 cans!!!!!!

fwoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosh.

more cans.

...

-head drooped-

-sigh loudly-

-ignored-

-resume stepping-

-with lesser and lesser enthusiasm-

-more cans roll down-

-sigh even loudly-

-head drooped even lower-

-step with even lesser enthusiasm-

TUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMB.

guess what?

more cans.

=.=

and more and more and more and more cans.

ended up stepping until 9.30.

like NON-STOP stepping.

well.

that's it.

and now!

FOR THE EXPERIMENT I CONDUCTED DURING THE RECYCLING THINGY.

problem statement: which bottled flavoured drink do the people of TAMAN OUG prefer?

aim: to identify type of bottled flavoured drink preferred.

hypothesis : they prefer vitagen.

variables : fixed - person conducting the experiment ( duh )

manipulated - bottled flavoured drink

responding - type of bottled flavoured drink preferred.

procedure:

1. seperate the bottled flavoured drinks base on their brands.

2. record down the amount of each brand of bottled flavoured drink.

3. that's it. you only got 2 steps.

AND THE RESULT!!!!!!!

OUT OF 200 BOTTLED FLAVOURED DRINKS COLLECTED ( approx ),

VITAGEN IS CLEARLY THE MOST PREFERRED ONE!!!!!!

FOLLOWED BY YAKULT!!!

AND A FEW SOLIVITE!!!!

IT APPEARS THAT THERE'S NO . REPEAT. NO NUTRIGEN!!!!

long

5.59pm

2010-03-09T05:31:00.000-08:00

venue : taylors college subang jaya

time : 4 - 8

date : 09 march 2010

day : tuesday

at 4 o clock...

came out from lecture theater

( listened to a talk given by 4 colleges in central london )

.....

( not really that useful )

thought about sms-ing my dad to tell him im done.

then thought about the

poor jie-en

staying back.

" hmm..

fine la.

maybe later la."

around 6..

everyone left.

left the lonely me.

in the library.

just finished the star.

wondering what to do while waiting for my dad.

think ah.

ok la.

do physics.

do ah.

got bored.

ok la.

find econs book.

find ah.

found one.

borrowed.

still no sms.

sit at sofa.

wonder what to do.

ok lo.

continue do my physics..

( I'm so hardworking. )

do do do do do do do do..

do do do do do do do do do do do do do...

do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do..

do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do..

do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do..

do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do..

looks at time

7.00pm

NOW WHERE IN THE NAME OF GAWD IS MY PAPA??!!

should i call him?

nope.

perhaps he's busy.

later la.

so i wait.

and WAIT.

and wait.

looks at time again.

7.30

fine.

IM CALLING MAN.

-start calling-

phone rang 9 times.

" the number you have dialled ...."

-end call-

=.=

3 minutes later...

my papa return call.

" long ah? "

"uh-huh"

".... where u ah?"

" taylors school lo.."

" i thought i told you to call your uncle to fetch you back?"

oh shoot.

-.-

ended up him fetching me at around 8.00.

reached home at 8.30.

bathe bla bla bla bla bla 9.00

long

9.46 pm

2010-03-02T05:17:00.000-08:00

tuesday.

o 9 22

so.

how's me? me? yeah.

u. oh. me. u? nonono. me. ooooo~

kay... me. im

perfectly fine. in fact, never been better. ( if

u can just

ignore the fact that im still single and desperate. ha! )

oh well. you can ignore that. and

no. i am not desperate. at least not

extremely. D:

oh gawd. i think im making it sounding as if im desperate.

for ____________~

tick tock. can't stop the clock~

hours pass. hours go. uh-

oh. there goes the clock.

sick sock. san't ssop she slock.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeedi-ot.

whhhhoooooooooo~

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

loookkkkkkkkkkk~

ooooooooookkkkkk~

ooooooooooookkkkkk~ at theeeeeeeeeee

kkkklloooccccckkkkk.

ssssannnn''tt ssssopppp ssshhhee sloooockkkk.

blah.

eeeemma .

acting like whackkooo.

ur fault. yes! all your

tault! TTTTAUULLT! TAULT TAULT!

im being

foolish, am i? will

u mind? me being so..

long-winded.

eh? you are

not going to go away right?

oh.

u are really leaving? don't

go. please? stay

here. with me.

whyyyy?

is it

that im not .. not....

hairy enough? ( i wonder what does being hairy has to do with that. hmm.. )

or...

u just don't like to be near with..

thin guys?

my god.

alleluia. stop the

klokkkk. pleaseee-

eeeeeeeeeee. can

u ? or at least. make it

pause for a moment.

note. I AM NOT BEING RANDOM.

long

10.16pm

2010-02-16T00:18:00.000-08:00

TO: lai yee.

the simplest person i ever met. so!

I doubt you read my blog. some advice for you to go along!
perhaps you do.( you seldom get advice from me. appreciate it! =D )
perhaps you don't. be yourself.
perhaps you used to. just yourself.
busy person now, eh? anyway. the one i knew.
in case you do. and will continue know-ing.
you are perhaps the only one who's in the same class with me for 4 years. -
i guess. for people like you are rare.
looooooong time right? those who remain pure and undiluted.
long enough to make me miss you now. even in this world.
slightly.
-nods-.

and since I sincerely doubt we will meet again.
good luck.

I have a feeling you will want it.

owh owh. and joanna said hi. ( she's beside me that time. )

note: If you look hard enough. perhaps you will discover the truth beyond the truth.

decide that for yourself.

get up.

take a step forward.

you got two fine legs.

you do not have to cling on anything.

-Edward Elric, Full Metal Alchemist-

long

10.37pm

2010-02-05T23:35:00.001-08:00

bum.
the previous post didnt went as expected. T.T

long
3.35pm

2010-02-05T23:32:00.001-08:00

LET.

ME.

TELL.

YOU.

SOMETHING.

AMAZING.

AM.

USING.

W.I.N.D.O.W.S

L.I.V.E.

W.R.I.T.E.R

TO.

BLOG.

AND JUST INCASE YOU ARE WONDERING WHETHER THERE ARE ANYTHING HIDDEN IN THIS POST.

THERE’S NOT.

huh? what did u say again?

W.I.N.D.O.W.S

L.I.V.E.

W.R.I.T.E.R

what what what what what?

WINDOWS LIVE WRITER.

GEDDIT?

AND IM PLAYING WITH THE FONT SIZE NOW.

THERE’S LIKE MORE font size than in blogger itself.

for example…..

-REFER BELOW-

LIKE OH MY GOD BIG.

OR PERHAPS THIS SIZE.

SMALLER.

AND SMALLER.

oooo.

smallest!

oh well. ~~you can ignore me.~~ im just trying out the tools here. ooooooooooooooooooooooooo. slanted! XD

BOLDED AND ITALICED LONG

UNDERLINED TIME: 3.30 PM

im slightly high. =)

2010-01-26T05:35:00.000-08:00

Totheawesomejieen:

"Every time someone asks me that question, Sharon, I say, " I'm fine, thank you," but to be honest I'm not. Do people really want to know how you feel when they ask, "How are you?"? Or are they just trying to be polite?" Holly smiled. Iguessthisbasicallycutoffanyattempt fromanyone elsefromcontinuereadingright

"The next time the woman across the road from my house says to me,"How are you?" I'm going to say to her; well, actually, I'm not very well at all, thank you. I'm feeling a bit depressed and lonely. Pissed off at the world. Envious of you and your perfect little family but not particularly envious of your husband at having to live with you. And then I'll tell her about how I started a new job and met lots of new people and how I'm trying hard to pick myself up but that I'm not at a loss about what else to do." AndtomakeitevenharderIhavedecidedtonotuse

anycommasfullstopsetcNowthat'scalledfun=)

"Then I'll tell her how it pisses me off when everyone says time is a healer when at the same time they also say absence makes the heart grow fonder, which really confuses me, because that means that the longer he's gone the more I want him. I'll tell her that nothing is healing at all and that every morning I wake up in my empty bed it feels like salt is being rubbed into those unhealing wounds." Anywayifyoufindittoohard toreadorjusttoolazytoreadPostanoteIdidsaveamucheasierdraftForyou.

Holly took a deep breath. " And then I'll tell her about how much I miss my husband and about how worthless my life seems without him. How uninterested I am in getting on with things without him and I'll explain how I feel like I'm just waiting for my world to end so that I can join him. She'll probably just say, " Oh that's good," like she always does, kiss her husband goodbye, hop into her car and drop her kids to school, go to work, make the dinner and go to bed with her husband and she'll have done it all while I'm still trying to decide what colour shirt to wear to work. What do you think?"WellHighschoollifehasbeenfunwithsomeone

likeyouYeahYou

-from P.S. I love you-

Theparticularonewhoalwaysburstoutlaughingforalmosteverysingletime

foralmosteverysinglething

I would really like to try that sometime.

Andcomplainthatonehasastomachachelater

ONE LAST THING.Andcontinueslaughinglateron

FOR GOD SAKE. =.=

DON'T ORDER A LARGE COKE. Toseeyoulaughingisindeedawonderfulsight

AND STILL DEMAND A REFILL. Asinmesmerizing

NOT EVEN HALF A REFILL. Orjustcomical.

Just don't do it in public, it scares off people u know.

And quote of the day.

Be Who You Are and Say What You Feel Because Those Who Mind Don’t Matter and Those Who Matter Don’t Mind.

P.S. Read IN BETWEEN the lines. IN BETWEEN.

long

1.19am

2010-01-22T08:06:00.000-08:00

well. bye. =)

NOTE. If that's your name's stated, continue reading. If not, wait for your turn. Thank you for your cooperation. ( not that u will be listening to me. ) =.=

To: the lovely joanna

You are the first! =) So, there's a few things I would like you to know. It's been fun having you as a friend. All these years. I didn't really know you when we're in form 2, but I'm glad we met again. =) And and did I ever mention that you got one of the best smile in the world? Well, in case I didn't, you got one of the best smile in the world. I would go as far as to say that seeing u smiling is one of the best small things in the world. But not randomly / simply / faking smile. As in really smiling. Yeah. Really smiling. So smile more. And charm the world. With your smile.

P.S. white rocks. if you get what i mean. and if you do, post i do on the chatbox. =)

long

9.10pm

2010-01-19T05:42:00.000-08:00

im feeling rather proud of myself now.

cause i don't think i will be spending much money on books.

as in those subject books.

i mean they are like BLARDY DARN FREAKIN expensive lo.

count yourself la.

1 pure maths 1 cost RM50.

NOTE:SINGULAR

THERE'S LIKE 3-4 MORE TO BUY.

ONLY FOR MATHS.

NOW MULTIPLY THAT BY 4.

THAT'S LIKE RM 800.

800.

A BLARDY 800 U KNOW.fine la... maybe not that much..

BUT STILL.

ITS EXPENSIVE.

anyway.

this is what im going to do.

im going to photostat the exercises for maths and further maths 1.

( super cheap lo photostat there. like 3CENTS per PAPER u noe?! 3 CENTS LEH!!!!)

and for economics. im just going to borrow the textbook from the library and take down the notes. and search the web for more information.

for thinking skills and moral. well. NOT NEEDED.

and for maths. SO NOT NEEDED MAN.

long

9.55pm

2010-01-16T21:22:00.000-08:00

imma just came back from recycling.

kinda tired.

o.o

i was like carrying ... erm.... around 500kg newspaper around u noe.

not altogether la.

but still.

its 500kg.

-.-

anyway.

been in college for a week. ( four days to be exact)

and...

it's not that fun.

as in i thought there will be like loads and loads and loads and loads and loads of break.

and and we are like allowed to choose to enter / not enter the class.

and perhaps life will be slightly more exciting.

let me tell u this.

ITS.

SO.

NOT.

TRUE.

uh-huh.

u don't believe me?

well.

AM.

NOT.

LYING.

there's like only one-hour-break.

ONE HOUR.

and the school time is like.

6 HOURS PER DAY.

u know.

i mean we are only like studying 5 hours in high school.

and here i am studying a blardy 6 hours.

talk about the wonderfulness of college.

-.-

well.

at least my subject teachers seem to be professionals.

the further maths teacher number 2 seems pro enough.

and the further maths teacher number 1 seems alright.

and econs.

hmmm...

i don't know much about her yet.

but her appearance not bad la.

as in she's lookable.

yeah.

lookable.

=.=

and for physics...

the teacher is good.

but she talks a little bit too fast.

as in the TALKING SPEED.

she's like .. bo yan talking chinese.

if u get what i mean.

for maths.

the teacher....

i don't know.

she doesn't seem extremely pro.

but well.

it's maths.

further maths is scarier.

so not much problem.

owh owh.

and im trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle now.

im like sleeping at 10.

and waking up at 6.

or 5.30.

IF POSSIBLE.

and and.

im drinking a glass of water before sleeping and after awaking.

and and and.

( planning la)

im exercising.

woooooo.

so im like going to live longer.

and healthier.

and and and and.

MUSCULAR.

long

1.40pm

the wonderful art of smiling

2010-01-08T18:56:00.000-08:00

smile when you're happy.

to express you are happy.

smile when you're sad.

at least it's better than crying.

smile when you meet a friend.

so that he too can share your joy.

smile when you meet a stranger.

and you're making his day a little better.

smile when things run smoothly.

so that god knows you're thankful.

smile even though things are running not-so-smoothly.

for everything's not ruined yet.

smile even though things are completely ruined.

for if it's as bad as you think so,

then there's nothing much left to do.

smile when no one's looking.

just in case someone's peeping.

smile when everyone's staring.

for 'she' may be looking.

smile when it's shining.

smile even when it's raining.

for it's just the weather.

why care about it?

so smile, my friend.

for a smile holds great power.

power that can change everything.

"how?" you ask.

try it out.

long =)

11.07

2010-01-03T23:51:00.000-08:00

Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the mask i wear. For I wear a mask, I wear a thousand masks, masks that I'm afraid to take off, and none of them is me. Pretending is an art that is second nature with me, but don't be fooled.

I give the impression that I'm secure, that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without; that confidence is my name and coolness is my game; that the waters are calm and that I'm in command and I need no one. But don't believe it; please don't.

I idly chatter with you in the suave tones of surface talk. I tell you everything that's really nothing, nothing of what's crying within me. So when I'm going through my routine, don't be fooled by what I'm saying. Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying; what I 'd like to be able to say; what, for survival, I need to say but I can't say. I dislike the hiding. Honestly i do. I dislike the superficial phony games I'm playing.

I'd really like to be genuine, spontaneous and me; but you have to help me. You have to help me by holding out your hand, even when that's the last thing I seem to want or need. Each time you are kind and gentle and encouraging, each time you try to understand because you really care, my heart begins to grow wings. Very small wings. Very feeble wings. But wings. With your sensitivity and sympathy and your power of understanding, I can make it. You can breathe life into me. It will not be easy for you. A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls. But love is stronger than strong walls, and therein lies my hope. Please try to beat down those walls with firm hands, but with gentle hands, for a child is very sensitive, and I am a child.

Who am I, you may wonder. For I am every man, every woman, every child...every human you meet.

-adopted from a book-

long

4.07pm

2010-01-01T10:48:00.000-08:00

new year, eh?

yeah.

new year.

new school.

new people.

new environment.

new new new new.

all new.

kinda scary.

O.O

hmm..

anyway.

it's a new year.

smile.

so.

this year.

im.

going to.

have six packs!

or....

four packs!

uber cool!

and slightly more meat!

ooooo.

then im going to looks fit.

o.o

imagine paper looking fit.

or bone looking meaty.

anyway.

continuing.

and im going to be.

just a little bit.

more serious.

yeah.

less messing around with my life.

study harder.

think more.

uh huh.

that's it.

4 aims.

let's see whether i can do it.

long

12.11pm

2009-12-22T03:26:00.000-08:00

if god is to grant me one wish.

just one wish.

i would like to stay with you guys longer.

i really do.

long

7.27pm

my life without internet - 1 / 12 / 09 - 3 / 12 / 09

2009-12-06T04:59:00.000-08:00

day 1

late afternoon ( around 6 )

while reading fairy tail......

- click next page -

ERROR!

hmm..

-refresh page-

ERROR!

huh...

-spam refresh-

fail.

-looks at time-

1/12/09

oh.

haven't pay internet fee.

-request help from mom-

me: mamaa, haven pay internet fee yetttt

my mom: good la.

me: (thinking aloud) GOOD?!

my mom: exam still play so much..

me:( thinking ALOUD)

FINE LA!

DUN PLAY THEN DUN PLAY LO!

HMPH!

-went upstairs to sulk for the rest of the day-

day 2

-woke up at 6-

( it's physics day, remember? PHYSICSSSS)

-after all the hassles-

-went to esso to wait for my sis-

-car arrived-

-enter-

my sis: erm. sorry ah. internet not done yet.

me: NOT DONE YET?!

-BANG!-

-emoed rest of the day-

-dad came bak-

me: (hinting furiously) papa, internet havent pay.

my dad: uh huh.

-IGNORED!!!!!!!!-

me:(sensing all hope is lost) resume emo.

3rd day.

BAH

IM TOO LAZY TO CONTINUE.

INTERNET COMES BACK.

THAT'S IT.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2009-11-09T07:18:00.000-08:00

it's 9 days to SPM, and i am lost.
i do not find the idea of studying during this particular period of time rather intriguing, perhaps mood-less will be a better word.
then there's this particular problem about wondering about the god-damned future, not to mention the god-damned twice computer.
about my future, right.
it's bleak.
i don't know anything about it- not my job, my goal, my life- anything.
so it's worrying about the 2 futures at the same time. the more important future and the nearer future.
great.
i am really lost.

long
11.26pm

2009-10-24T23:10:00.000-07:00

to my dad,

im tired.
tired of hearing you.
talking about SPM.
how soon it will arrive.
how little time i am left with.
how much time i am spending with the computer.
i know you are just being worried.
but it will be better if you will just stop it.
have faith in your own son.
he's good.
he just need time to rest.

to my mom,

please stop.
complaining about everything.
my results.
my attitude.
my sleeping hours.
my sleeping place.
my time to wash the dishes.
and your husband.
my dad.
i know it's the way you are.
but that's the way i am too.
so chill.
and stop worrying about the world.

to the people who just happen to stumble upon my blog,
don't worry.
i am not going nuts.
i am not going to take a kitchen knife and cut my parents into pieces.
then commit suicide.
i am fine.
in fact, quite good.
i just need space.
and time.

long
2.30pm

2009-10-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

8.00 am - wake up
8.30 am - breakfast
9.00 am - stone
12.30 pm - lunch
1.00 pm - stone
7.00 pm - dinner
7.30 pm - stone
9.47 pm - stone

IM FREAKING BORED!!!!!
OMG!
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED

...
get it?

9.49pm
long

2009-09-10T00:19:00.000-07:00

TO: no one in particular

bummer.

long
5.24pm

2009-09-07T02:06:00.000-07:00

TO: the people who's going to have THE exam

8/9.

o unhappy people.

tommorrow's the day,

of pain and agony,

of shame and fear,

of death and sorrow.

8/9

o unhappy people,

pray or mourne,

for tommorrow shall decides,

we stand or lie,

we live or die.

o unhappy people.

8/9

o unhappy people,

stand firm and tall,

smile and laugh,

drink and eat,

for tommorrow we die.

8/9

o unhappy people.

8/9. school day.
8/9. tuesday.
8/9. THE day.
8/9. exam day.

long

5.19p.m.

nah.. batman rox more

2009-08-21T05:15:00.000-07:00

=.=

basically this post is just for fun..

for the satisfaction of SOME PEOPLE.

( which is not very appropriate to mention here)

anyway..

batman rox.

long

8.17p.m.

2009-08-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

i tell u ah....
yesterday my dad's room cannot open..
and my mom's not in..
so ah..
he come and sleep with me le...
BESIDE ME U NOE????
it's like...
freakkish..
=.=
i woke up like 5 times u noe?
and den aso dun dare move to other place..
later he wakes up and stares at me:
where are u going?
..
den i will be like..
O.O
gosh.

long
10.26pm

2009-06-14T02:01:00.000-07:00

my hair's veli long.
as in loooooonnnnnngggg.
seriously llloooooooonnnnnnnggggggggg.
super duper lllllllllooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggg.
the llllllooooooooonnnnnggggggeeeeesssssssstttttt i ever had.
im gonna cut it.
my veli llloooooooooooonnnnnnnggggggggg hair.
T.T
sad thing tmr school day.
gonna cut it now.
bb.
gonna miss my hair.
=(

P.S. c.. it's long.

long
5.03pm

2009-05-20T05:14:00.001-07:00

haha.

maybe u r wondering y i put such a weird pic up dere..

well..

this is about yesterday.

so...

it happened in the afternoon.

and.....

(gettin excited?)

guess wat?

i looked at my watch and...

IT SHOWED 5.19 PM!!!!!!!

AS IN 5.19.00 !!!!!!!

and i was like....

GOSH.

it's 19th may u noe?

and the clock showed the same time. AS IN THE EXACT SAME TIME.

5. 19.

OMG.

(maybe sumthing bad's gonna happen...)

(or good..)

im still waiting.

8.23 pm

long

2009-05-17T06:10:00.000-07:00

xam's coming.
soon.
i guess.
it's time.
to get serious.
eh?

9.52pm
long

2009-05-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

gosh.
im having a HUGGEEEEEE pimple here.
=.=
i mean like HUGGGEEEEEEE.
and it's dam pain la.
juz by frowning is pain enough.
=.=
and it's soooo not removable yet.
gosh.
wonder what am i gonna do with it.

8.41pm
long

2009-05-04T05:57:00.000-07:00

...
ei...
been gettin reali sleepy nowadays la..
and...
little bit depressed...
=.=.

dun ask me why la..
juz knda tired these few days..
dunno cuz too much activities or what ler...
summore xam comin..
haha...
gotta work reali hard this time.
..
..
well.
dats all i guess..
gettin realii no mood.
and sleepy.

go sleep 1st.
9.29pm.
long

2009-04-18T02:14:00.000-07:00

erm..
=.=
well..
srry for the previous post.
and it wasnt caused by de previous previous post..
we won..
1st~~~~

hehehe.
well.
enuf about dat.
and im not gonna elaborate much about the previous post.
ok?

thanks.
so.
well..
about today.
went to da majlis anugerah cemerlang.
and saw a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot of HOTTIES!!!!
( im a male u noe? )
anyway..
today's plain boring.
woke up at 4 juz to prepare my kadet uniform.
den come bak at 11.00.
and slept till nw.
=.=

ntg to talk much about today...
juz gonna leave it this way la..

( oh by da way, I WANT TO WATCH FAST AND FURIOUS 4!!!)

2009-04-12T05:35:00.000-07:00

go to hell man.
i mean it.
zzz.

2009-04-10T04:39:00.000-07:00

ok.
so.
today's friday.
and tomorrow's saturday.
well.
i noe u noe it.
so do i.
but.
it's a REALI important saturday.
to me anyway.
MY BIG DAY.
MARCHING COMPETITION.
let me make something clear.
im not panicking.
nor am i scared.
neither afraid.
i.
am.
just.
NERVOUS.
.
.
.
.
.
gosh.
im actually nervous.
im not even nervous during de exam.
or any other MAJOR event.
but well.
I AM NERVOUS.
and i cant do anything about it.
fine.
whatever.
WHO CARES?!!!
=.=
( me...)

gotta stop here.
before i go.
well.
over-emotional.
gonna check my stuff.
tomorrow's de big day ya noe?
THE BIG DAY.
hehe.
hope we win.
XD

oh ya.
gonna update tommorrow.
and tell u about de results.
tata.

2009-03-27T10:57:00.000-07:00

ok fine..
its 1.57 AM.
heehee..
and im still awake!!!!
and what's more u noe?
IM ALONE!!!!!!!
AT HOME!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!
life rox man!!
....
ok.. fine
maybbbee im being a little bit high here..
just a little bit.
not much..
yay~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ok la..
cuz tmr gt qing ming ma..
and i gt kadet latihan..
so my mom and dad go qing ming dem ownselves lo~~~
LEAVING ME AALOONNNEE!!!!
.......

ok la..
gonna play dota!!
heehee..
i dun often get time to play now ler...
given dat my results not that gd..
so!!
ciao~

2009-03-25T05:17:00.000-07:00

ok..
fine..
so im just goona post my xam results in my first post... eh?
fine..
i did NTG well...
as in NOTHING.
things just didnt go as i expected....
=.=
.........
and i dun like it..
AT ALL.
.......
mayb u r juz gonna say..
hello~~
mine is worse u noe?
.
.
.
i noe la....
anyway...
wrote a dam good essay juz nw..
hahahaa..
dam satisfied with my self..
reali ler..
veli nice de..
mayb nex time let u c laa..
heehee..

welllll...
i guess dat's for today..
tata..